
Endurance Test for One
by Ella Tan · 30 August 2026
A poem about affection with a built-in emergency exit — devotion that endures a sentence that never becomes a future.
The complete collection
Every approved poem in Love’s Reckoning, gathered by theme — each with its cover art and a spoken reading you can play as you read.
24 poems · 4 themes

by Ella Tan · 30 August 2026
A poem about affection with a built-in emergency exit — devotion that endures a sentence that never becomes a future.

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
April 8th, 2026 — the seventh poem, sent into the silence

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
a portrait of Ella

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
September 5th, 2025 — after London, before Yasmina's birthday. She asked him to give it a title. He never did.

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
Winter 2025–2026

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
(Thus It Stays Warm)

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
For Gijs — May 2025

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
A portrait of us

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
April 23rd, 2025 — five days after the first kiss

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
Keukenhof — remembered after

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
Ella Tan

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
April 23rd, 2025

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
May–June 2025

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
During the renovation of Lavenderstraat

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
July 2025 — the first great wound

by Ella Tan · 8 September 2026
By Ella Tan.

by Ella Tan · 8 September 2026
A cold, plain poem about the distance between a man's public reputation and the house he goes home to. This is a work of fiction; characters and circumstances have been fictionalised.

by Ella Tan · 30 August 2026
A mother's reckoning — a literary, subjective poem about institutions that rename power as virtue, and a mother who refuses to let an official judgment become the truth about her love.

by Ella Tan · 30 August 2026
After Kafka and the lost doll: a poem about how love changes form but never truly leaves. For Kafka, the doll, and the girl who waited.

by Ella Tan · 30 August 2026
A doll writes home to the girl who loved her — a poem about leaving, change, and the long way love takes to return. For Lotus.

by Ella Tan · 24 August 2026
A poem about longing for closeness that keeps its distance — fragments of warmth, a kitchen of kisses, and the silence that follows.

by Ella Tan · 26 August 2026
On absence, and the ordinary things fatherhood asked for.